Last week one of my friends came over with her two kids, including her sweet newborn. Sophie hadn’t really paid much attention to her until I asked if she wanted to hold the baby (whom I was holding at the time). She held her for a while and seemed to really enjoy her. Later, she requested to hold her again and was proud that she was so good at taking care of her. After my friend left, Sophie seemed a little melancholy and soon gave me a glimpse of her feelings.
I want to hold a baby.
I want a real baby not a play one.
I wanted to have Goodwin that I would always get to hold.
I wanted us to have a baby in our family.
I want to hold a baby all day.
I’m sad ’cause I didn’t get to keep holding the baby.
It really broke my heart to hear her true feelings in that moment. For the past month she has been so positive about everything that I really thought it hadn’t affected her that much. But even in her 5-year-old world, she was hurting. It made me really sad too that we didn’t have our baby for her to enjoy.